356 days of pushing myself.
One forward action for each day of the year.
Why?
For the past weeks I have been self-helping myself to exhaustion. This self-help frenzy I’m in stems from the “Who am I?” What do I want?” “What am I here for?” sort of questions that I perpetually ask myself. Asking these questions while jobless birthed the emo inside of me which led me to write this emo blog to release the negativity I’ve been carrying in my heart. And release it did! I feel 10lbs. lighter after blurting everything out. I buried the emo me through release and after that I have been ready to move on.
I tried to join this contest to get free tickets to a seminar (I need free tickets, being jobless)…
…through these answers:
After reading the questions in the PR intro for the seminar I feel like I really really really NEED to be there.
The long answer is in this blog post:http://rigette81.blogspot.com/2010/07/at-ground-zero.html
but the short of it is that…
What do I do? – a lot and nothing at the same time. I am too scatter brained – stuck in a plateau and do not really know where to aim at.
Where am I now? – I’m at ground zero and cannot lift my leg up to take a step
Where am I going? – my scatter brain usually tells me “where you’ll have the most meaningful experiences! Doesn’t matter where!” but I’m 28. and if you still feel like a lost college graduate dealing with quarter life crisis at 28, it is certain that you need help.
How do I get there? – Since I do not really knowing where I’m going… I have no answer to this question.
When will I get there? – This either.
What will it cost me? – Probably a lot. Since time wasted is the most burdensome expense.
I want to “fix” my life, I just don’t know where to start. I’ll probably feel stabs in my chest knowing how straightforward Cito talks, but a little stab is probably what I need to wake up.
I hope I win the tickets!
After the emo me was burried, I went ahead and read , listened to and watched every single self-help and self-improvement blog, article, book, audio, and video I can find. Name it – I probably have read or listened to it! These men and women from different realities found a common consciousness. They found that life is and will never be perfect but that the choice to drown with the world or rise above it is totally yours to make. Input after input after input from these gracious men and women, I came into a conclusion that the bottom line of all of their different principles and techniques is ACTION.
I looked for workbooks, activity sheets, quizzes, everything to help me jumpstart this call to action. Although helpful, these activities are not very true to who I am. Most are just not relevant to my present circumstances. So I looked for local self-help gurus. I found a lot, and still their journey is beautiful but it’s just not mine.
Here is my resolution on integrating my self-help friends' advices with my own life path - I will DO forward motion everyday! I will do something that I have never done before, don't want to do, have been meaning to do, have not done in a long time, anything that is not part of the daily grind, anything, something. And I'll do it everyday for 365 days even if I feel like it or not, rain or shine, sick or well. I'll start with the simple things, ones that I can do from where I am without spending anything. It can be a photograph a day, a design a day, a good deed a day, an adventure a day, anything!
356 Days = 365 Challenges = Hopefully a BETTER me!
This would be similar to the phrase "fake it 'till you make it". I'll fake my forward motion by doing anything not part of my everyday until one day I find myself living the life of my dreams!
Today is DOday! Because today I will DO something with my life!
For Love, for Victory, for the glory of God!
