Be alone with my thoughts.
I almost forgot how to do this very wonderful activity of daydreaming. Just sitting or lying down, just my thoughts and me. As a child I often did this inside the bathroom while I play with water. I would sing my heart out with the dipper on my ear and pretend that I am a famous singer singing somewhere exotic, somewhere I’m extremely famous and loved. I also do this with Sugar, my dog when I was in grade school. We would both sit in the garden and dream that we were off to the caves of Palawan or hanging out in the white sand beaches somewhere in the world. I can remember a lot of these times alone. We did not have cable back then, no computers, no cellphones, so it is really easy to daydream back in the 80’s.
This task seems very easy but at 28, it is actually hard! Having lived in the urban jungle made me desensitized to its noise, glaring lights, and pollution. The digital age have made me grown accustom to being bombarded with information anywhere, anytime. Whenever I need an outlet I always have a tool or an activity for it – internet, camera, paper & pen, ipod, and everything else. It is very rare that I really am alone with my thoughts with nothing in the middle.
So what I did is disinfected the bathtub for the security of hygiene.
Got my HHN Mandarin body wash.
Turned on the water and filled the tub just to 1½ inches high (conserve water, it has been running low lately), just enough to warm my back.
Then I just lay there for about 30 minutes in silence, doing nothing, with a blank ceiling in front of me.
this is the ceiling in our bathroom
I had to control myself from getting the scrub to wash my grime off because it somehow feels like a sin to be doing nothing.
The first 10 minutes was hard. I could not start thinking as I was staring at the tempting scrub justifying that I can very well think even while scrubbing. I finally gave up the scrub and started to reacquaint myself with myself. I now find myself boring because I am now realistic. Boo! My first daydream is finding the perfect creative job, having my hair straightened, moving to a nice house, and all these boring thoughts.
I wanted to stop but I didn’t. I just went along with it, one boring thought after another until finally, breakthrough! I was able to dream again! In 30 minutes I am once again capable of thinking! It is crazy exciting! I start thinking again about the caves to explore, visiting the homes in the show Northern Exposure, having a multi-media exhibit, watch the sunrise at the Maldives, and many more electrifying thoughts!
I think I’d like to do this more often. It is like therapy.
Completed DOday #1, 364 challenges to go!
For Love, for Victory, for the glory of God!